So...this whole economics crisis thing really is not fun right now. Some businesses are not being affected at all by this--but we, the Motel and Bowling Alley are. People just are not traveling right now as much or need to for their business or pleasure-thus I am being affected. Last year in January the Motel had over $20,000 dollars of money stay here. This year...only $13,000 or less. So you could say "OUCH" and yes we are being affected by this. People are just not getting enough business to have their employees stay here or getting any business out here at all--so I'm not having as many companies stay here as I have had in the past.
So---as of this morning my boss came in and said that I need to cut hours. Not "let-go" anyone, but cut some hours. I have been given an automatic three hours a day or sometimes a little more just depends on how hard they work and if it was a "Bad-day". But now...I'm pretty much going to have to let them work what they work...maybe give them 2 hours a day automatically. But if they are late then that's their fault. If they have to leave soon, then that's their fault. It really sucks to do this. I'm sure I'll get some who really depend on the extra hours get mad or quit--threatening to quit behind my back. But--I'm not going to fire anyone...if some girls quit and that leaves just a few girls to do the Motel, then that will help them get more hours--but in turn they have to work harder-- it is just a win or loose situation... So we'll see how this all works out..."yea me..."
Another thing that has been going on in my mind is... I'm sure this is going to annoy people and I'll just sound like a typical girl--but here I go:
Why do I have to be over-weight?? Sure I had a kid---no excuse really. I see how some moms have kids and they look exactly like they were before having kids--or BETTER. Me on the other hand, not so lucky...I am the heaviest I've been before having a kiddo. It is just annoying. I worked out and was doing good there and eating less, but then that affected my Hypoglycemic tendencies. So then I ate more and still worked out here and there--and it just doesn't seem to be working. I swear I have gained more since I have tried to watch what I eat. It is just annoying to think you are eating better and then get on the scale and see that you've gained three pounds!! I don't care if I have a few curves...but I still want to feel somewhat good about myself---more confident. I guess I am just around ridiculously skinny people a lot--*no names Rachel, Becky, Kym, Kalab, Kris--pretty much all Mullins's except me*...and I just feel like a whale most of the time...
Plus sometimes when I hear people talk about other people saying they are fat or chubby---and knowing with no doubt that I am bigger and heavier-- makes me wonder what they think about me. I don't want to have the perfect body--though yes that would be nice-- I just want to be healthier and more confident. When you see me, you'll most likely see me in a hoodie, jacket, T-shirt and jeans. Yes, they are comfortable and have always been my favorite type of clothing--not the most stylish on earth--but at the same time it "hides" yucky rolls :] or so I think :]
So all you people who have a good metabolism-- BE GRATEFUL! :]

Just how I'm feeling...I'll get over it eventually :]