Mother's Day/Anniversary/Grandpa Ellsworth *MAY* (sorry for a long post)

Well, Mother's day was really nice. Relaxing. Like all Sunday's :] We went to Kris's Mom's Ward to spend time with her. Then we went up to Kris's parents home and ate yummy food. Kris bought me a gun for Mother's Day... ahhahah-- nice right? :] He's funny, but it really is a nice gun. My first official gun of my own-- so watch out! Especially rude costumers--hahahha!! Kiddin'-- or am I? We did go shooting one day and I shot the gun. I did pretty good for the first time shooting and getting used to it. It's a Walther P-22... Goober got me Madagascar 1 and 2 *love both of them*

... which ironically he picks Madagascar 2 to watch almost everyday and dances to

"I LIKE TO MOVE-IT MOVE-IT :]

Then on May 19th was our 3rd Year Anniversary. Sadly enough I had to work all day, so we really didn't do anything. But Kris got me 3 things*3rd Anniversary*, Flowers--Paul Blart "Mall Cop" movie--Electric Can Opener. It was everything I wanted and more :] I love Kris more and more. He is my best friend. He makes me laugh everyday. He is my eternal companion and comforter. I am SOOO BLESSED!!!

THANKS & LOVE YOU HON!!!

Tiger Lilly Flowers, I wasn't quick enough to take a picture of the bouquet...

Very pretty though!!

HILARIOUS KEVIN JAMES *aka: Chase, my brother*

Just look at him next time, they act and look so much alike!!! hahhaha!!!

An Electric Can Opener; so I don't have to search everywhere for the one that used to be in the drawer... now Kris can't lose this one!!!

THREE YEARS!! AND PLENTY MORE TO COME!!!

Then an even more saddening event happened than just working on our Anniversary... My mom called me in the afternoon on our Anniversary. I thought she was just calling to say, "Happy Anniversary", but she didn't. She said, "Uh, Grandpa Ellsworth just died." :[ You can bet I started tearing up pretty good. I was not in shock really, but I was still in denial at first that I just lost my Grandpa George.

Even now thinking about him I just don't ever see him being gone. He was so strong, so hard working, so energetic...

So, yeah wasn't the "Happiest" Anniversary ever, but it was still an Anniversary... I guess you could say I'll never forget what day he died. I called my dad later that day to see how he was and grandma. My dad was there just to visit and grandpa just happened to die. He seemed okay as well as my grandma. I just started bawling when I talked to her--she was way stronger/calmer than me. I told my dad on the phone, "Why does this happen?" He said, "What?" I said, "Grandpa dies on my Anniversary, and Sunshine, Georgie and Joshua (my dad's sister's kids) died on my birthday and Chase's... *bad car wreck*" He said, "Oh... didn't think of that. It's not you, it just happens." So, you could say I was stubborn and thinking maybe I'm bad luck, but...

Ever since he was found on Christmas day 2008, passed out in the snow in his front yard, he's gone down hill. If it wasn't for my dad, he would've died that day. The last time I saw my Grandpa was in March. For my cousin's sealing to his wife in Vernal, UT. We went and visited both my grandma and grandpa. I just thought I was going to see him and he was going to look like the Grandpa I always knew, but when I saw him I couldn't help but tear up. He couldn't talk. Couldn't Walk or hardily move. All he could do was just look at ya. He was in a recliner chair that you could stroll around, but he wasn't the same Grandpa. Very fragile. I just never in my life thought I'd see him this bad. It breaks my heart, but I know he's in a wonderful place...and he is the George that everyone knows and loves. I know time he on earth is much shorter than time in heaven. I miss him a lot.

There are two things that really makes me grateful and overwhelmed when thinking about it...one was even though he couldn't really move or speak-- when he saw Declan, he smiled. It really touched my heart. I was so proud. It just really shows how precious children are. They can make the weak have enough strength to smile.

When we left that last day that I saw him, I grabbed my grandpa's hand and looked him in the eye and said, "I Love you..." I am really glad I did that. I know my grandpa doesn't really like "gooshy" situations, but I really do love him. He just looked at me and I know he said it with his eyes.

When I went out to the funeral on the 23rd of May, I drove past my grandparents home 'The Station'. *and now I always tear up whenever I drive past* I have so many memories there. I pretty much grew up there and played there constantly--because my parents were constantly there running the gas station and Video store.

It's just not the same house at all. Neither of my grandparents are there anymore, and never will be again. I just started crying and it really hit me hard that I am growing up. I am at a stage of where I am losing my grandpa... and life is just so precious and should never be taken granted for. I love you grandpa and I know I'll see you again smiling at me with the same smile and giggle...and I know you are closer than I realize sometimes and I still feel you around...

LOVE YOU GRANDPA GEORGE!!!

Most of all the Ellsworth Grand kids... Dez-Chase-JaNita- Breanna wasn't born yet and Jenika wasn't there either...

Declan, a little over a month old during Christmas time. First time meeting each other. This is Grandpa's first Great Grandchild. The only one so far... he was so funny and was afraid to hold Declan, but I just put him in his lap and he held him for quite a while and smiled :]

The Funeral was really nice. I had a really hard time having to go in and look at him. I just was not ready I guess. Declan was pretty confused. He kept pointing at him wondering why he was not "waking up" or moving. So, thankfully my mother-in-law was there and took Declan for walks to keep him occupied before family prayer...and during the service.

Tyson, my dad's brother's son, did the History of his life. He did really well, and it was really nice to hear funny stories about Grandpa.

Dez was next and did all the memories of the grandchildren. It was really sweet. Very touching. Almost everyone has mostly the same memories about grandpa, and that just shows how fun he was and how true to himself he was. Really makes me want to be a kid again!!

Chase was the last and did a talk. He really did an amazing job. Really spiritual and uplifting. He really touched on how we'll see him again. How he'll be healthy, happy...

Then all the grand kids and spouses went up and sang, "Nearer My God To Thee." It was really great to have everyone up there and singing for Grandpa. I cried of course. Didn't sing as loud as I usually do, but the Spirit was there and so was Grandpa...

Mom and Declan at the Lunch after the Funeral

Family Members around Grandma Juanita Ellsworth...

It was a hard day... but comforting too...

It was very hard to smile here by Grandpa's graveside

before being put in the earth...

Very overwhelming month/spring to say the least... but that's just how life is sometimes. I'm just very grateful for my family and the Gospel in our lives!!

EVERY SINGLE LAST ONE OF THEM!!!